Auditions

So I auditioned for a musical with my local congregation. They took my measurements. Ugh. The play will be in November, however, so my measurements will hopefully change by then. The audition itself went well. They put me down as a high tenor I find that funny because I sang bass all through high school. When they did my range check, I was able to hit the G above mid-C with no worries. My daughters did really well, too.

So today, I came home extra tired. Not sure if it was the reduced calories or just a long day at work. maybe both. Hunger wasn't as bad today, though. For dinner it was grilled chicken salad with some bacon (Mmmm... Bacon...) and some yogurt. I'm at 460 cals right now. Just enough left for some jerky and pudding.

Good luck all! G'night!

Ugh.

It's possible that the day would still have been completely draining even if I hadn't been sticking to the program.  Actually, now that I think about it, it's probably likely :P.  (I did have to go to work today, after all).

So one of my Achilles heels (I wonder how many of those I have... Anatomy would suggest not more than two, but I'm pretty sure metaphorically I have several)  Where was I?  Oh yes.. One of my biggest weaknesses Is free food.  It is so hard to resist it when some one says, 'here! take this yummy food!'  My employer seems to thrive on doing this when I'm working cutting cals.  Yesterday, day one, I was offered an ice cream sandwich.  Sigh... No thanks.  Today, my manager brought in doughnuts from Banbury Cross.  Lots of them.  Grrr.... He's a great guy, but is it wrong to be annoyed with someone who is being nice?  Anyway, I passed that test too.  Tomorrow, my team earned free breakfast.  I doubt it will be yogurt and fruit.  I will prevail!

Mid-day update

Good day so far. I feel fine, and I wasn't even hungry most of the
day. I had a good dinner with some protein and veggies. I just keep
thinking to myself that I don't have to make it all 60 days today. Just
one. Just today. I'm feeling hungry but content to be back on the
right path.

Here we go...

Day one. It's morning and I'm kinda excited :). I'll report back later.

The frustration of starting over

Two years ago, I went from 308lbs down to 210lbs. There was no secret, no quick fix, nothing but brute force, family support, and making good choices.

Now I find myself at 290. I gained most of this weight in the last six months. Why? Two words: Bad choices. I would love to make excuses and blame something or someone else for my current weight, and all the progress I lost, but I'm not really into the blame thing. Blame solves nothing and is an attempt to dodge responsibility and make yourself feel better. The fact is I made bad choices when I ate food.

So I'm starting over. New account, new blog, new goals. New program.

My dad has diabetes. His diabetes is a result of bad nutrition choices made over years and years. He recently read a study where many of the participants were able to reverse their diabetes by following a strict 60 day program that limited caloric intake to 600 calories. Participants ate a lot of vegetables and relied on the liquid diet drink Optifast. When he told me about the study, I decided that would be a perfect opportunity to work together towards a common goal. He would work towards losing weight and eliminating his diabetes, and I would work just toward losing weight.

This program is extreme. I'm not recommending it to anyone. You make your own choices. I'm doing it because I get good results from extreme. I need to get back to the focus and drive I had before, and this time develop a better plan to keep the weight off when I get there. I also hope that with me working with my dad, it will add the very necessary component of accountability.

Set goals. Work. Measure. Report. Repeat. That's how it's done. Let's do it :)